[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And you knew I fell for you, but you just broke my heart in two
I was sad, mad, and broken on my bed
Hoping I get rid of all the voices in my head

[Verse 1]
I was opening a packet of an undeveloped med
When I was met with a prescription of a bullet made of lead
And when I woke up in an hour in a pool of my own sweat
I said, "I swear to God I'll never even try to sleep again"
So instead, I took my pen and started writing evidence
And whеn I started making sense, I found that I had rеached the end
Oh, I'm upset, I have no friends, you wanna bet, you're just pretend?
You're just a pet confined within the lines of writing, you're not ***
I thought I stopped my psychopathic ways, I swear I did
I said I'd talk to people 'bout the problematic life I lived
They were my neighbors; razor blades
And different flavored pills I hid
Therefore, I'm at, surely, my last straw
I'm so gassed, stuck in the past, I said that

[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And so far I never held you with my arms
So it's hard to be the one you aren't with
Instead filled with anxiety, always was a part of me
Guess I'm not cut out to be

[Verse 2]
Somebody 'cause it's not me, I'm not used to all the talking
Was an introvert that had converted feelings into writing
Used to cope with all my problems using notes and lots of rhyming
Used to hope for better days whenever nights would have me crying
I'm not lying when I say that I would rather die than go back
To the times that I would try and be the guy the people know
As always fighting with the demons hiding far behind my eyelids
On an island full of violence, in my head I had two pilots
Oh, the sun don't shine and skies turn grey
I feel it coursing through my veins
I've said before I'm not okay
But you don't listen anyway
You know I tried, you turned away
You straight-up lied right to my face
You *** my life, ruined my day
But you don't know, so I'll say

[Bridge]
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)
Nothing can fill this silence, no one can love like I did
(You don't know, so I'll say)
Nobody cares, you lied, it's not fair, you still deny it
(So I'll say)

[Chorus]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And too bad I know I can't wake up because I lost my way
And you don't give a *** about me, this could be a dream
I can't see the things that you see, so please, oh

[Outro]
Girl, I hope you understand, I wanted to hold your hand
But I can't, wanted to be your man back then
And you had known and played along
You were my home, I wrote you songs
Now you're dead to me, effectively
Remove yourself outside my dreams