I don't know, it's alright I've been dealing with some things like every human being and really didn't sleep much last night I'm sorry, that's fine I just think I need a little me time I just think I need a little free time Little break from the shows and the bus rides Last year I had a breakdown Thoughts telling me I'm lost, getting too loud Had to see a therapist and I found out Something funny's going on up in my house Yeah, started thinking maybe I should move out You know, pack my car, take a new route Clean up my yard, get the noose out Hang up my heart, let it air out I've been searching, what does that mean, Nate? I've been learning, ***bing my keepsakes Leaving my burdens, well I brought a few with me I'm not perfect, looking at the view like this concerns me Picking up the cues right, I'm quite nervous Hating when I lose sight, life gets blurry And things might hurt me, it's probably gonna be a long journey, but hey It's worth it though, cold world out there Kids, *** your coats, been a minute, I know Now I'm back to Rome, looking for the antidote to crack the code Pretty good, I admit it, I'm in classic mode Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone Fuckin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for cracking jokes I'm looking for the map, the hope, you see that? Been making a whole lot of changes Wrote a song about that, you should play it I get scared when I walk on these stages I look at the crowd and see so many faces Yeah, that's when I start to get anxious That's when my thoughts can be dangerous That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred Forget what I'm saying and, where'd the beat go? Oh, ain't that something? Drums came in, you ain't see that coming Hands on my head, can't tell me nothing Got a taste of the fame, it'll pull my stomach Throw it back up like I don't want it Wipe my face, clean off my vomit OCD tryna push my buttons I said, don't touch it, now y'all done it I can be critical, never typical If you give it every syllable, I'm a criminal Intimate, but never political, pretty miserable Even if you hate it, I'll make you feel like you're in it though You call me what you want, but never call me forgettable Leaping deep and taller, can never swim in a kiddie pool Way that I've been thinking is cinematic and beautiful And I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos, videos, videos Yeah, the sails can rise, doesn't mean much though When your health declines, see we've all got something That we trapped inside, that we try to suffocate You know, hoping it dies, try to hold it underwater But it always survives, then it comes up out of nowhere Like an evil surprise, then it hovers over you To tell you millions of lies, you don't relate to that? Must not be as crazy as I am The point I'm making is the mind is a powerful place And what you're feeding can affect you in a powerful way It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe So just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay? Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith I've been developing, take a look at the penitents Nothing to matter with, I can never be delicate Mind irrelevant, that depends how you measure it Take a measurement to back it up and give me the evidence Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip Papa etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate It's that time again Better *** your balloons and invite your friends Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap them in Look at me, everybody, I'm smiling big On the road right now that I can't predict Tell me, tone that down, but I can't resist Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip Ha! Ha!