Hey Nate, how's life?
I don't know, it's alright
I've been dealing with some things like every human being
And really didn't sleep much last night
I'm sorry, that's fine
I just think I need a little me time
I just think I need a little free time
Little break from the shows and the bus rides
Last year I had a breakdown
Thoughts telling me I'm lost getting too loud
Had to see a therapist and I found out
Something funny's going on up in my house
Yeah, started thinking maybe I should move out
You know, pack my car, take a new route
Clean up my yard, get the noose out
Hang up my heart, let it air out
I've been searching, what does that mean, Nate?
I've been learning, grabbing my keepsakes
Leaving my burdens, well, I brought a few with me
I'm not perfect, looking at the view like
This concerns me, picking up the cues right
I'm quite nervous, hating when I lose sight
Life gets blurry and things might hurt me
It's probably gonna be a long journey, but
It's worth it though, cold world out there
Kids, *** your coats
Been a minute, I know, now I'm back to Rome
Looking for the antidote to crack the cold
Pretty good that I admitted I'm in classic mode
The only pity given to me, but I can't condone
Talking down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose
For cracking jokes, I'm looking for the map to hope
They're making a whole lot of changes
Wrote a song about that, you should play it
I get scared when I walk on these stages
I look at the crowd and see so many faces
Yeah, that's when I start to get anxious
That's when my thoughts can be dangerous
That's when I put on my makeup and drown in self-hatred
Forget what I'm saying and
Let me go
Oh, ain't that something?
Drums came in, you ain't see that coming
Hands on my head, can't tell me nothing
Got a taste of the fame, it upon my stomach
Throw it back up like I don't want it
Wipe my face, clean off my vomit
OCD tryna push my buttons
I said don't touch it, now y'all done it
I can be critical, never typical
Intermittent with every syllable, I'm a criminal
Intimate but never political, pretty miserable
Even if you hate it, I make you feel like you're anything
You call me what you want it, but never call me forgettable
Leave you deep inside, I can never swim in the kiddie pool
Waited, I've been thinking the cinematic is beautiful, man
I don't know if I'm making movies or music videos
Yeah, the sales can rise
Doesn't mean much, though, when your health declines
See, we've all got something that we trapped inside
That we try to suffocate, you know, hoping it dies
Try to hold it underwater, but it always survives
And it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise
Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies
You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy as I am
The point I'm making is the mind is a powerful place
And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way
It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe
Just hang with me, this'll only take a moment, okay?
Just think about it for a second, if you look at your face
Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great
You'll never be great, not because you're not, but the hate
Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith
I've been developing, take a look at the penitents
Nothing to meddle with, I can never be delicate
Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it
Take a measurement to back it up and give me the evidence
Pretty evident, dependable can never be tentative
I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine
Pretty elegant, but not afraid to tell you to get a grip
Papa etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate
It's that time again
Better *** your balloons and invite your friends
See, bounce back on, yeah, strap them in
Look at me, everybody, I'm smiling big
On the road right now that I can't predict
Tell me, tone that down, but I can't resist
Y'all know that sound, better raise your fists
The search begins, I'm back, so enjoy the trip
Huh?
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