Those on the * trip
I'm a man learning to shrug it off
Going to the light, staying away from the dark
Five years of hell wasn't enough to pull my family apart
Garmin smoking, drinking alcohol
Showing emotions wasn't the way I was taught
Matter of fact I got addicted drinking smoking pot
Stayed away from sharing my thoughts Growing
in my addictions where I began to lost
Didn't even want to pray to God Act like I was a juggernaut
All I wanted was to feel the buzz Isn't that what every addict does?
Choose addiction over love Choose the wrong ones,
give the trust
Learn how to self-destruct Feed the demon inside like damn who am I?
All the demons in my mind Always be on cloud nine
Took a year to see the signs Seen my mental health decline
Was only 24 Didn't know who to call for it
Didn't know who to ask for it Smoking,
now I had to hide the hurting
Smoking more and more,
drinking more and more Didn't know how to close the addiction door
Self-destruction happened within,
tried to hold it in
Looking at my low reflection,
it's time to change
Made me the only person I should blame
I'm tired of feeling insane
Tired of feeling mentally drained
Wonder if I should drink and change
Wonder if I should smoke and make the change
Realized that burning might be the way in order to feel okay
Felt my mind go insane
Lost to my own inner demon
Finally found myself defeated, had nothing left
Had to learn to pick up my broken pieces
Had to give myself to Jesus, now I get it way
from my weakness, now I get away from this demon