We kept wishing our lives away on a fairy tale or something like that
But never could have guessed the time would move so fast
The first hit like a cigarette after months away and you crave that feeling
Now I'll never forget how it felt on the last
Less than twenty hours later you were sitting in my room
Taking names like they were stars
Strangers and you had everything to prove
You said you liked it better on the budget breaking
I told you I've got nothing left to lose
And just like that you found the cracks that have been hidden in plain blue
That night I was wide awake
Just in for fear
Fingerprints when I should have been asleep
And all the outlines you put up were slightly blurred
And at the start it looked a lot like love
In the end I don't remember much
But I still picture you the way you were
Cause that's the way that I prefer
Barely more than four weeks
I'll be gone
After you were laying in my car
Planning for the next disaster
As if the last month had passed
I said I've got a ticket for this distance
You told me that you'll never be too far
Oh well how things change
It's been a decade and now I don't know where you are
There's no point pretending
Cause I'm not forgetting
The evidence is still on my hands
Cause I started a fire in the back
With the ambulance and the police station
And that was the catalyst to all I've heard since then
Every now and then I'll find a photo
I've not seen in years
Hidden in a photo somewhere
That I thought I'd disappeared
It tells me that no matter how hard I try
A piece of me will never let it go
And even with the best intentions
I'll miss the worst parts of this ghost
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