We kept wishing our lives away on a fairy tale or something like that
But never could have guessed the time would have moved so fast
The first hit like a cigarette, after months away and you crave that feeling
Now I'll never forget how it felt on the last
Less than twenty hours later, you were sitting in my room
Taking names like ping-pong stars
Strangers, and you had everything to prove
You said you liked it better, I'm a budget-breaking
I told you I've got nothing left to lose
And just like that, I found the cracks that I've been hitting and inflating
That night I was wide awake
Dust in the face
Fingerprints when I should have been sleeping
And all the outlines you put up had slightly blurred
And at the start it looked a lot like love
In the end, I don't remember much
But I still picture you the way you were
Cause that's the way we always were
Barely more than four weeks
After you were laying in my cold
My day before the next disaster
As if the last month had passed
I said I've gotten sick of all this distance
You told me that you'll never be too far
How things change, it's been a decade
And now I don't know where you are
There's no point pretending cause I'm not forgetting
And yet the dust is still on my hands
Cause I was trying to fire in the back of the ambulance
And the police station
And that was the catalyst to all our runs since then
Every now and then I find a photo
Almost seen in the news
Hidden in a photo somewhere
That I thought had disappeared
It tells me that no matter how hard I try
A piece of me will never let it go
And even with the best intentions
I'll miss the bright spots of this coast
I'll stay the way I am
As long as we continue trying



With you and your loved ones