Yeah, holdin' back Yeah, I've always been good at that, unattached Yeah, waitin' for what's comin' next Things I know I should've dressed I feel more together when I am a mess I saw moments that just came and went Made amends with you, then you overstepped That's a line you never should've crossed You got no respect, stop with all the threats Like the more I get to know you, I just know you less Another city I don't know well Feelin' too much, like my whole self Backslidin', backslidin' Got me in the sad fields Got me outta standstill Too much time alone, that's when it gets real Future doesn't pop up in the past, well Upside, that's a rearview Now I'm goin' downhill, yeah Don't know who I'm close with Goin' through the motions Don't know who to trust when, yeah I lied to myself and I, I can't handle it Why do I waste so much time on things that I can't fix? All these things I hold inside I just can't forget Thought that I could let this go But I didn't know that it would be like this Like this I didn't know that it would be like this Like this I didn't know that it would be like this Baby, I'm impossible to be with I know that you got a thousand reasons You probably wanna leave but don't know how, yeah I don't hear a thing when you yell Guess you like to hear your own voice, yeah Got me standin' here with no choice I see they tryna gas, they got me all wrong Look, I'm doin' my best to try to stay down But I can't deal, can't deal Feelin' too much, like my whole self Backslidin', backslidin' I just let the phone ring We ain't even close, please Throwin' out opinions from the nose, please, ayy, yeah Lotta issues that you don't see Texted, I just won't read Play it off, it cuts deep, though When I don't know who I'm close with Goin' through the motions Don't know who to trust when I, yeah I lie to myself and I, I can't handle it Why do I waste so much time on things that I can't fix? All these things I hold inside I just can't forget Thought that I could let this go But I didn't know that I would be like this Like this I didn't know that I would be like this Like this I didn't know that I would be like this Like this I didn't know that I would be like this Like this I didn't know that I would be like this Like this I didn't know that I would be like this