It's been a while since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I first saw you And it's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while since I could call you And everything I can remember Is *** up as it all may seem The consequences that are at work I stretched myself beyond my means And it's been a while since I couldn't say That I wasn't addicted And it's been a while since I couldn't say I loved myself as well And it's been a while since I've gone and *** things up Just like I always do And it's been a while but all that *** seems to disappear When I'm with you And everything I can remember Is *** up as it all may seem The consequences that I've rendered I'm gone and *** things up again And again Why must I feel the same? Just make things go away Just one more peaceful day And it's been a while since I could Look at myself straight And it's been a while since I said I'm sorry And it's been a while since I've seen the way The candles light your face And it's been a while but I can still remember Just the way you taste And everything I can remember Is *** up as it all may seem To me, I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He did the best he could for me And it's been a while since I could Hold my head up high And it's been a while since I said I'm sorry