It's been a while since I could hold my head up high And it's been a while since I first saw you And it's been a while since I couldn't stand on my own two feet again And it's been a while since I couldn't call you And everything I can't remember As *** up as it all may seem And consequences that I've rendered I stretched myself beyond my means And it's been a while since I couldn't say that I wasn't addicted And it's been a while since I couldn't say I love myself as well It's been a while since I've gone and *** things up Just like I always do It's been a while but all that *** seems to disappear when I'm with you And everything I can't remember As *** up as it all may seem And consequences that I've rendered Gone and *** things up again, again Why must I feel this way? Just make this go away Just one more peaceful day It's been a while since I could look at myself straight It's been a while since I said I'm sorry It's been a while since I've seen the way The candles light your face It's been a while but I can still remember Just the way you taste And everything I can't remember As *** up as it all may seem To me I know it's me I cannot blame this on my father He made the best he could for me It's been a while since I could hold my head up high It's been a while since I said I'm sorry