Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh Yeah, look, I don't do drugs I'm addicted to the pain, though, yeah I been on it for a while, don't know how to put it down Gotta have it, it's a habit, I'ma break, though I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay, though I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood You don't know what love is till you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose That's why I'm tryna get it together Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever Forget the charts, I'ma focus in on holdin' my head The moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best And if I'm not, Lord, forgive me, you can have the regrets Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit Runnin' from change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want change I don't like new things Got a lot of mood swings Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative I don't wanna hear what you think, yeah Tossin' in my sleep Every night for like two weeks Thinkin' about how I coulda done this or done that Bet I can't help it, that's just me That's just me avoidin' the change Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place Outta my face, if you're tellin' me I need to be different That's the issue, though, I'm always insecurity-driven Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed If somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute I need Yeah, it's kinda easy to say right But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy But I don't ever think it, so I think I'm a fake liar It's somethin' that I know I should do I'm a little uncomfortable to tell you the truth But to be honest with you, lately I got nothin' to lose See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room I'm lookin' for change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want I need a moment of silence I don't like change, but I'll try it I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do Why are they always defiant? See, all my emotions are liars All my emotions are violent They don't want freedom to find me Mention their name and everybody riots That's why I'm checkin' my vitals They keep on workin', but I know Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so I walk out on my tightrope, positive thoughts of my rivals I'm tryin' to be on their side, though Should I feel comfortable? I don't Last year I felt suicidal, this year I might do somethin' different Like talkin' to God I'm lookin' for change I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want I'm lookin' for change I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for change I just want, I just want I'm searchin' for change I'm lookin' for, yeah I just want, I just want I'm searchin' for, yeah I'm lookin' for, yeah I just want, I just want I just want, I just want