Some days I still wake up with my chest feeling tight
I take a moment, hold it till I know I'm alright
I try to get past it
But some days I just don't
Close my eyes, remember what I think I know best
There's three things in this room that I could feel with my hands
Six years in the making And it creeps up on me still
But something's different this time Let the wave wash over me
But it don't crash as much as it used to What did I do?
I'm looking back at the years that I've spent
Thinking I wasn't getting better but then I remember
where my feet are Much farther than I could've imagined
If I could go back in time just to see
I'd hold her close, a little version of me
Tell her it's just temporary Not sure all she's gonna do anymore
Take it from me, cause I've been there before
Someday you'll wake up without a thing that you know
A spiral way too deep to get yourself out all alone
Look around,
there are people who'd be sad to see you go
They'd do anything they could to bring the light to get you home
And something's different this time I
look up at the sky and realize my troubles
Smaller than they used to What did I do?
I'm looking back at the years that I've spent
Thinking I wasn't getting better but then
I remember where my feet are Much farther than I could've imagined
If I could go back in time just to see I'd hold her close,
a little version of me
Tell her it's just temporary Not sure all she's gonna do anymore
Take it from me,
I know you've heard it all before
The words sound empty at this point It feels as
if there's nothing you can do to change things
And I'm not saying that it's easy,
but if it's anything This is what I wish that I could tell me,
tell me
I'm looking back at the years we went through And
all the ways you learned and how much you grew
And I don't know how I did it,
but I hope you know I'm here because of you
If I could go back in time just to see I'd hold her close,
a little version of me
Tell her thank you for the patience,
the gentleness and love she gave and more
I'll pay it forward to the me I
was before