One night, when me and my mom, we was about to go to bed, all the doors was locked, then when I had fell asleep, my mom had heard three gunshots, it was to my cousin, his name was John, the one that came to pick me up, he been shot right through the face, right in the neck, and he got shot right in the stomach. All I ever wanted was to hear them bitches holler back, get some money plus respect, and now look, I got all of that, all I wanna do is see my granny on the other side, all I wanna do is kill the man that made my mama cry, all I wanna do is touch a platinum plaque and celebrate, all I wanna do is keep my niggas out the yellow tape, all I wanna do is see my granny on the other side, all I wanna do is kill the man that made my mama cry. Right now I'm staring out the window of my range and contemplating am I sane, have I sacrificed for fame, my occupation's on my brain, thought that I could change it all if I had changed, but the niggas that I came up with way back is still the same, I be tryna give em game like Santa did when Christmas came, they be listening but it's clear to me they did not hear a thing, it go in one ear and out the other like a bullet out the muzzle of a pistol shot by brothers standing point-blank range, niggas bang in the field I always thought that *** was strange, how you claim blood or cuz when that was just a L.A. thing, I don't mean no disrespect towards Josette, no I'm just saying, that it seemed like for acceptance niggas will do anything, niggas will rep any gang, niggas will bust any head, niggas will risk everything, point em out and then he dead, shooting up where his granny live, bloww, bloww, his granny duck, he don't give a ***, he's on Henny and tanned up, blowing Tammy up, bitch when you gon get em pennies up, he gon plant a seed but best believe he ain't many enough, just because your dick is spray semen it don't mean that you ready to let go of your childish ways, the results are deadly, because that child was suffering that's what can most affect me, the little girl I met this past summer said don't forget me, I won't forget you, how could I with all you went through, a bullet hit your cousin in temple while he was with you, and while you was talking I was tearing up where's the tissue, if you was my sister then I would kiss you, and tell you that I'm sorry for the pain you had to live through, I know I'm blessed because your stress is realer than anything I done been through, I put my head to the sky I sing, grateful for the blessings you bring, thank you for the ones I love, forgive me for the times I was down and confused, I know, what I reap is what I will sow, once again I find myself back with you from my hell, all I ever wanted was to hear them bitches holla back, get some money plus respect and now look I got all of that, all I wanna do is see my granny on the other side, all I wanna do is kill the man that made my mama cry, all I wanna do is touch a platinum plaque and celebrate, all I wanna do is keep my niggas out the yellow tape, all I wanna do is see my granny on the other side, all I wanna do is kill the man that made my mama cry He's giving us a lesson, that we need to learn, all he's trying to warn us of, he's coming back to see us, and take us home, and we do the world, he's coming back to have us be his children, and for us to see him for the first time, so we can rejoice with him and have all time, and after we do that he's gonna restart the world K.O.D