What a time to be alive, last Christmas I found out my baby died
I watched my husband dig the grave, planted an orange tree that I see when I go down that driveway
And everyone said I did good, I guess I cried the right amount and kept it private when I could
But I wish someone would tell me that I did good
Someone had asked how it felt to birth a body on the floor beside the bath
And I don't even know your name
But if it's all the same to you, Llewellyn's what I wanted to choose
I wish that I'd gone on my own
But your brother came to see on the big screen the baby that I'd grown
And I could see it on her face
And I prayed that I was wrong, but I read people every day
And I don't even know your name
But if it's all the same to you
Llewellyn's what I wanted to choose
And I've got books, and I've got prayers
And I've got people all around me who care
But I've got a home in my heart that'll never go away
Now I give my money to get back my time
Now I give my money to get back my time
To spend it longer with my kids
Cause the years rush by
I've got a home in my heart
It's more familiar every day
There's a picture by my bed
Your brother drew it
He said that you were sad
Because you're dead
And it's my favorite thing he's done
Cause at four years old he's figured out
There's pain you can't outrun
And I don't even know your name
But if it's all the same to you
Llewellyn's what I wanted to choose
But if it's all the same to you
You were what I wanted to choose
Llewellyn's what I wanted to choose