What a time to be alive, last Christmas I found out my baby diedI watched my husband dig the grave, planted an orange tree that I see when I go down that drivewayAnd everyone said I did good, I guess I cried the right amount and kept it private when I couldBut I wish someone would tell me that I did goodSomeone had asked how it felt to birth a body on the floor beside the bathAnd I don't even know your nameBut if it's all the same to you, Llewellyn's what I wanted to chooseI wish that I'd gone on my ownBut your brother came to see on the big screen the baby that I'd grownAnd I could see it on her faceAnd I prayed that I was wrong, but I read people every dayAnd I don't even know your nameBut if it's all the same to youLlewellyn's what I wanted to chooseAnd I've got books, and I've got prayersAnd I've got people all around me who careBut I've got a home in my heart that'll never go awayNow I give my money to get back my timeNow I give my money to get back my timeTo spend it longer with my kidsCause the years rush byI've got a home in my heartIt's more familiar every dayThere's a picture by my bedYour brother drew itHe said that you were sadBecause you're deadAnd it's my favorite thing he's doneCause at four years old he's figured outThere's pain you can't outrunAnd I don't even know your nameBut if it's all the same to youLlewellyn's what I wanted to chooseBut if it's all the same to youYou were what I wanted to chooseLlewellyn's what I wanted to choose