Have y'all ever been ghosted before?
Have we been ghosted before at Color Club?
Cool, cool, cool.
Me too, and I did not take it well.
DJ, hit it.
It's been five hours since you texted back.
Feel like I'm about to have a goddamn heart attack
because you haven't showed up
and there's no reason why you would do that
unless you died.
I know that sounds crazy
and it's pretty grim
but as I wait, the reality is setting in
imagining all the horrific ways
and hows and whys
in which you could have died.
Are you stuck all squished under a subway train?
Did you drown in your bathtub
or fall out of a plane
because you told me you love me?
There's no way you'd change your mind.
No, I'm certain you must have died.
So I send a text message
just checking in.
Then I find...
I find myself texting you again and again
and again and again and again
and again and again and again
now I'm calling, calling, calling, calling calling
calling, calling, calling, calling, calling
Where the * are you
calling, calling, calling, calling, calling, calling
calling, calling, cannonballing


Oh *.
Oh, I know I've done way too much
but how couldn't I?
I'm so scared, I mean what if you decided
to take up hiking for the first time ever
right before it was hanging out.
over a branch fell down a hill concussed yourself you're laying there looking up at the sky you're
like wow nature is so beautiful but i actually have plans with jamie and i can't contact her
because i'm in the woods and i have no service right like you have to be in a morgue or in some
serious danger to have not seen one of my 45 text messages and 15 missed calls like it couldn't be
that i have an anxious attachment style that makes me incredibly needy and clingy in romantic
relationships like it couldn't be that i keep people at an arm's length because i know the
second we express romantic feelings for each other something in my brain will say smother them jamie
smother them the way your mother smothered your father give them so much love that there's nothing
left to give because i go to therapy and for 150 a session there's no way that i'm the problem
no i'm sure you must have died rest in peace
wow