I love the chaos at the start And all the colliding voices telling me stopI crave the places I forget And sharing secrets while I'm out of my headWhy is it when I'm deep in a hole That I dug myself?Why is it when I'm losing control Everything makes senseAnd all of my feelings Running away from any logical reasonAnd I find myself back at the bar with my demons Sharing tequilasThen I realize that I'm still in love And I realize I can't get enoughI'm turning my life upside down I'm turning my life inside outI'm messing my life upI dread the calm after the storm When the party's over and I'm craving for moreI hate the fact that I do this to myself Using up all the chemicalsCause nothing else helpsWhy is it when I'm deep in a hole That I dug myself?Why is it when I'm losing control Everything makes senseAnd all of my feelings Running away from any logical reasonAnd I find myself back at the bar with my demons Sharing tequilasThen I realize that I'm still in love And I realize I can't get enoughI'm turning my life upside down I'm turning my life inside outI'm messing my life up