I want to run, I want to hide from all the pain I got inside I want to scream, I want to cry, but I just really want to die I'm fine one minute, then the next I'm breaking Swear to God I hate to smile, but for y'all I fake it Can't you see the pain I'm in, why do you think I'm faking? My world done crumbled and it's down to my feet Can't expect myself to win cause I don't face defeat Too many I appear strong, but deep inside I'm weak Can't keep waiting for tomorrow, when all I feel is sorrow I'm just a young n***a that's pathetic and depressed Afraid of showing others all the feelings I suppressed I'm afraid that y'all gon' judge me and belittle what I feel So I spend my nights alone in the attic trying to deal How I cope with all the pain, I smoke the dope and pop the pills That's the only thing that keeps me sane and makes my heart heal I done lost my mind, I don't know who I am My thoughts went deep and my emotions turned to nightmares I can't tell nobody so they don't know how I feel Who gon' be there to accept me after all I'm gon' reveal? I'm on my own, I handle things, little *** I cannot deal If I go today, just know I had my wish fulfilled Just know I had my wish fulfilled For real though, game Wish fulfilled, you know Wish fulfilled, you know She know Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmaker Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmaker Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers Xmakers