[Verse 1]
Wasn't raised religious
But I wish that I was
Having nothing to believe in
It’s been killing my buzz
[Pre-Chorus]
Yeah, I comb my hair, close the blinds
Play Hallelujah like two dozen times
And yesterday, I tried to pray
But I didn't know what to say
[Chorus]
I'm too sad to cry, too high to get up
Don’t even try 'cause I'm scared to *** up
Don't like to talk, I just lay in my bed
Don't even try to go out with my friends
Lied to my doctor, she knew I was faking
Gave me some pills, but I'm too scared to take them
I try and I try, but I'm too sad to cry
[Verse 2]
Can't tell my mama
It makes her worry
I’m not suicidal
Sometimes, the lines get all blurry