I
used to laugh when she'd steal my hoodies on rainy days
Tease her about her coffee,
order the same one every time
We'd stay up talking till the streetlights faded away
I called it friendship,
thought that's all that was in my mind
She light up a room with that crooked smile she wore
And I pretend I didn't notice how my heart skipped a beat
Told myself it was nothing,
nothing worth fighting for
While she was right there,
waiting for me to speak
But I stayed quiet, played it safe
Let the moment slip through like sand
Now she's looking at him the way I always wish she'd look in my hands
And now she's falling into his arms
Laughing at jokes that used to be mine
He's holding the heart I never claimed
While I'm standing here running out of time
I loved her in silence,
too scared to try Watched her choose him under these same skies
Too late to say I was always yours
Too late to say I was always in love
I introduced him that night at the bar
downtown Thought he'd be good for her,
better than I could be
He made her dance in the glow of the neon lights around
And I smiled through the ache that was killing me
Every touch,
every glance,
every inside joke Cut a little deeper,
but I swallowed the pain
Told myself brothers come first,
that's how it goes Now I'm losing them both in a pouring rain
I should've fought for what was real
Instead I handed her away
Now he's the one who gets to heal all
the broken parts I never dared to name
And now she's falling into his arms
Laughing at jokes that used to be mine
He's holding the heart I never claimed
While I'm standing here running out of time
I loved her in silence,
too scared to try Watched her choose him under these same skies
Too late to say I was always yours
Too late to say I was always in love
I see them walking the streets we used to own Her hand in his,
the way he should've been in mine
If I could go back I'd tell her everything I've known
But the words die in my throat every single time
I'm happy for them,
God I swear I am Even if it tears me apart inside
But some nights I still whisper her name
Wishing I'd been the one by her side
She's happy now,
in his arms Building a life I let pass me by
He gets forever,
I can't regress In this empty space where my courage died
I loved her in silence,
too scared to fight Now she's his world under these same lights
Too late to say I was always yours Too late to say I was always,
always in love
Always in love
And she'll never know