April 27th, 2019 I hope you're here, I hope this reaches you All the money in the world, I can't find where they sellin' time Or a blunt in every wine, I'm just thinkin' *** but it's fine Let me catch you up, let me spend some time Let me catch you up, yeah I don't know where to start, but somethin' told me write this down And just to speak from the heart, it's been 14 years since I found you All alone in the dark, but losin' you brought us together When it could've tore us apart, mom's doin' good, she misses you She thinks about you daily, we got a dog after you passed And she nicknamed her Missy, she lives alone out in New Orleans She always tells me she miss me, but such is life This story's real, it's not a movie by Disney Should probably tell you I wrote a song and put your story inside it ***, I forgot to tell y'all, I'm like a famous rapper now Signed a record deal, I made all of my dreams come true I toured the world, made platinum albums, and I still stay true It's so much to catch up on now, so I think out loud When you passed, I was ***in' up, still I was a problem child But we had promises to each other, yeah, I swore and I vowed I went to college, I graduated, I would've made you proud I'm about to turn 30, James is about to turn 27 He's findin' himself still, but I know he'll find out in a second He graduated from the same school that I went to in NOLA He lives right up the street from moms as crazy as he's gotten older He's matured beyond his years, he's the best guy I know I find the older I get, it's like the less that I know This world's confusing, sometimes I feel all depressed, filled with gloom The more and more I understand why you had to hide in that room ***, it's been some time since I had someone I could tell this *** Celebrity life is full of everyone expectin' *** And 2019 life is crazy in its evident way You won't believe this part, but Trump was the president And Leo finally got his Oscar after all And the Warriors were finally the best team in basketball Anyways, that's all for now, I'll keep this short and sweet I'll save the rest until the next time we meet I found peace All these moments brief Shaded memories I can hardly speak I found peace in our dreams I just gripped my teeth Through teary eyes I see Smilin' back at me I found peace It's seven months since you left Some nights it hits me harder than others, that's when I get depressed I play your ***, but I had to stop readin' old texts I shed tears sometimes, still *** it, I've been a mess Knowin' myself, I was too proud to ever tell this to you But since you popped out first, I used to be all the jealous of you I used to hate sometimes, Jamil said, that's not healthy of you But I was broke and unsuccessful, what you expect me to do? We asked a white boy's rap and felt like they would always compare us Except you sell out shows across the world from Oakland to Paris And I was still at my mom's crib, that means I live with my parents I couldn't sell *** out in my town, I was slightly embarrassed Fast forward some years, I finally caught up a bit I always wondered by that time, like if you ***ed up my *** And then we finally met in Europe, playin' festival shows You watch my set side stage, I try to flex with them shows Until I went and watched yours, and you burnt that *** down And caught up afterwards, you ***ed with my sound We clicked immediately, time passed in a blink Talkin' ***, I can't believe that was the first time we linked What I was goin' through with Ash, you went through with Ariana And you were checkin' on me daily, helped me deal with that drama Come to think of it, we talked like every day last summer You were like a big brother, crazy that you was younger It's only a dream until it happens to you But no one ever told me these things would be happenin' too ***, anyways, that's all for now, I'll keep it short and sweet I'll save the rest until the next time we meet, I'll miss you back I found peace, all these moments brief Shaded memories, I can hardly speak I found peace in our dreams I just gripped my teeth, through teary eyes I see Smilin' back at me, I found peace I found peace All the money in the world, I can't find what I sell in time Want blood and I'll be wine, I'm just thinkin' sippin' this wine Let me catch you up, it's been a while Let me catch you up