I don't wanna do drugs anymore If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall Your skin would crawl, I'm high But I am not a sycophant for a good time I only wanted to escape my mind For a night, know what happiness feels like But the nightmare I'm ignoring Is darker in the morning It's a band-aid on, a broken arm A siren sounding out along A *** up version of self-harm And it's louder than a cry for help When I destroy my mental health Because I don't respect myself Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry I don't wanna go to bed all alone So I let another stranger take me home I drink to numb the pain And you would do it too if you were sharing my brain Everybody that I love gets hurt And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve it Demons I'm ignoring And the regret in the morning It's a *** domino effect A prison cell inside my head A trauma that I can't forget And it's louder than a cry for help When I destroy my mental health Because I *** hate myself Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever Damn if I do, boy if I don't And I should get clean again But I wanna told you I don't need help Because I lied to myself Damn if I do, boy if I don't And I should get clean again But I wanna, wanna be someone else Because I'm scared of myself Sometimes I'm scared of myself Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry Every time I take these drugs to pick me up All I ever do is cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever cry, cry I only ever cry