It's belligerent, and this is my struggle We all got our own personal hell we go through, man Every day is a struggle, *** it, I am the struggle No light at the end of my tunnel, trapped up in the rubble Struggle being a father, wish I would've been smarter Mistakes that I made and bitches who played me made life so much harder Struggle with addictions, like my wife's bitchin' I wouldn't listen, sittin' in the kitchen, waitin' for the dope to kick in This is not the type of life I wanted to bring my kids in No spot to get in, no pot to piss in, a lot is missing cause pop's addicted Suicidal tendencies have been in me, for years I've been my enemy Tried to put an end to me, cause I struggled to be who I'm meant to be Fired a shot that could've ended me, that bullet just wasn't meant for me I guess hell still has its sin for me I've been in need, been on bended knee, I ain't perfect, no pretend to be Got three little men that depend on me, are you ***ing comprehending me? Can't leave them alone, this cold ass world, I can never ever let them turn into me Not looking for redemption to be, cause I know where God is sending me Mobile is where I hail from, the struggle is a real one So many tales I could tell them, nobody give a *** for real, bruh Friends that are already in the grave, friends that could turn on me any day I got a friend that's been with me all the way from day one Lately I've been feeling, like life is not worth living Life's so unappealing, cause life is so revealing Problems to the ceiling, my hopes and dreams I've killed them Too many mother***ing pills in, so much for me to deal with I got a lot of people I died for, and a lot of people I still cry for Cause they ain't on this ***ing side no more, and I survive on till my time gone Love my kids and protect them, I struggle but don't neglect them A lot of *** I've done will affect them, but don't expect me to reject them Feel I'm gonna die so I go for broke, ***ing up and still smoking dope Remember that time when I overdosed, thought the mother***ing show was over bro But I survived, oh for sure, just wasn't my time to go below What's the time for me to go blow for blow, let the devil in hell postpone the show Now you can't always find me, wherever the sun's not shining My life's steady declining, no reason to leave it up behind me You can try me, but I ain't quite ready to die, see Still got some life in fighting me, got my kids and my friends beside me Life can be so frightening, then again it can be enlightening My future could be bright for me, that sure would be a sight to see Life finally getting right for me, every night going home to my wife to see So the crazy bitch pulls a knife on me, here we go again right where we like to be Mobile is where I hail from, the struggle is a real one So many tales I could tell them, nobody give a *** for real bro Friends that are already in the grave, got friends that'll turn me any day Got a friend that's family all the way from day one Lately I've been feeling, like life is not worth living Life's so unappealing, cause life's been so revealing Problems to the ceiling, my hopes and dreams I've killed them Too many mother***ing pills in, so much struggle to deal with The time to change has come and gone, like everybody gets your struggle on Every day I just keep shoving on, and all the hope and love is gone Maybe one day I'll make it through, maybe I can make a change or two Till then I'll be the same old fool, with hard times I'm no stranger to Lately I've been feeling, like life is not worth living Life's so unappealing, cause life's been so revealing Problems to the ceiling, my hopes and dreams I've killed them Too many mother***ing pills in, so much struggle to deal with So much struggle to deal with Mobile is where I hail from Nobody give a *** for real bro