Hallelujah, thank God I have a future Prayin' I don't waste it gettin' faded Cuz I'm smokin' b****es until I'm coughin' up tar Feel the surge, energy curve like a lumbar I don't act hard, I still read Bad Boy Trippin' out, lookin' at a bunch of Google Maps storms S**t, they got an app for that But me, I'm still trapped inside my head It kinda feel like it's a purgatory So black and white, but I got family who would murder for me Think I'm livin' paradise or what I have to worry bout? Dealin' with these demons, feel the pressure, find the perfect style Makin' sure my mom and dad is still somewhat in love All these backfires of my experimental drugs And I experience a touch of my epiphany in color form Difference between love and warmth, for me I'm above the norm Give me anybody at all, gladly choice face off Them bad songs rhymin' like it's summertime on asphalt Hot, haven't picked a major label, think I'm blackballed I still don't got the heart to pick my phone up when my dad calls Will he recognize his son when he hears my voice? I put this news against my life, I think I've made a choice And I don't know what I'm runnin' from, but I'm runnin' still I conversate with acquaintances, but it's nothin' real I'm from a city that you hear and think a bunch of steel So a hundred mils wouldn't make me sign a ***in' deal Money kills, that's the truth, it's called the root of evil But I want that Rolls Royce that the homie Lennon drove So if you don't talk about some money, I'ma send you home Unconventional, special, but unprofessional Adolescent expression that's lettin' me meet these centerfolds As troubles fill my mind capacity, I let em' go If I was Johnny Depp and blow, I would let it snow That's just me all wildin' out and bein' extra though And if God was a human, it'd be yours truly Watchin' horror movies with some foreign groupies Thinkin' this decor suits me I do drugs, get more loopy I'm in tune to ancient jiu-jitsu Spirituals, it's blissful Lookin' out as far as eyes can see I'm glad that me and this elevation could finally meet I think I'm JFK's final speech They try assassinating all of my beliefs But I'm the script So whisper to me for the peace of mind And he'd be high as some weed to grind on top of Jesus' shrine Twenty thousand on my watch cause I needed time If y'all would leave me the *** alone, that'd be divine Can't decide if you like all the fame Three years ago to now, it's just not the same I'm lookin' out my window, ashin' on the pain ***, wonder if I lost my way Yeah, don't you ever wanna hide away Beside and triumph in the eyes of rain Won't give a *** about tomorrow if I die today I greet the devil with a smilin' face ***, that God fell on me resided in space As times are wastin', I'm freebasin' with Freemasons My girl switchin' the locks, the keys keep changin' Dreamin' of places, my own personal creations If there's a party in heaven, I plan to leave wasted Retrace my steps way back to biblical times We all gon' end up meetin' at the finishin' line And when you sit down, and when you walk And when you lie down, and when your hands up I am the Lord, your God