And we're going to talk about every single song and so I'll definitely have you expand more on those
But that was something that I noticed that the last time I talked to you
You talked about the fact that you never record songs that are from the outside
And then so when I saw four of them on here, I thought hmm
Either it was because I really couldn't deal with what was coming from the inside, right?
right, I mean, did you feel like it was just going to be kind of a
Slit your wrist sort of record if you continued to just put all your own material on there. No offense
Well, you know the songs that
You know state i'm in
and
Love me
and
Even the first song the party's over
The party's over is happy and bouncy and right but it's really tongue-in-cheek. It's it's really if you look at the lyrics
It's not it's a little dark
well
And that's the thing that I thought was interesting about it because if you're not paying attention
You might get the idea that it's sort of a party song
But then you listen to the lyrics and you you read them because I read every lyric as I was listening to it
and I mean the juxtaposition
Was kind of interesting because I I think that people could be mistaken and thinking like a party
And the vibe of the song is yeah party too. Very bouncy. Yeah, so
You know those three songs right there had happened and the way that they came out. It was very obvious to me of
I just wasn't ready
To deal with what was coming out. I certainly wasn't ready to put it on a record for the world to see right
Right, you know you put a lot I will say that so in an effort to take
Some of it off myself in the sense that like I said, I can separate from somebody else's song
Well, I didn't I didn't write it
but I certainly
gravitated towards
Songs that fit the mood and fit within the songs that I'd had written
It's not that I couldn't have wrote the record. It's that I
Don't know that I was ready to put out what that record would have been on a whole
It's absolutely going to come. I it might come in a little bit of a different setting
Are you someone who is tormented by songs in that?
If something is in your mind and on your heart that if you don't
whether it's leave where you're at or get up out of bed or
Get the song out of you that it just sort of antagonizes you and haunts you until you're able to sort of set it free
Yes, but I only set it free when it's time to record
I can't tell you how many countless songs have gone through my head and left
Really like the full song I can hear the whole everything the music the words the melody. Wow, all of it
All the way through and there it goes. So I try as much as I can to
creatively shut myself off
As much as I can and to the point where I don't even have a guitar sitting close by
to pick up and mess around with because
If I wasn't cognitive enough to put my phone there and recording
I can come up with in my mind what to me at that moment is the coolest stuff
And have forgot it by the time i'm at the end of it doing it that first time
And it's not quite the same the second time i'm trying to remember what I did the first time and
is that because
you feel like you could sort of fall into a rabbit hole and
just
Continuously be writing and hold up and not living if you were to allow the music to
Create as you go. I think it's probably because
I have no real answer for you on that
Okay, I I don't know why I don't just
Allow the spigot to be turned on all the time and and if a song comes to me
I don't know that i've ever done that. It's interesting. I mean because you're obviously very talented and you write tremendous songs and so
I can't imagine
Coming up with one, you know, maybe to self-analyze myself, maybe
I feel like if I just kept letting it out constantly that it would water down. Okay, maybe
And it takes all that bottled up stuff that naturally just happens to me anyways as a human being
I feel like maybe with it all bottled up the 10 songs 12 songs that are going to come out of me for that time frame because
That's when I need to record 10 or 12 songs for the record
That there's more
Bottled up behind them
Okay
more emotion to dump into what does
Come out of me
Well, that's very interesting. I don't know. I don't know either
I'll get you back on another couch in the future and maybe we can maybe this isn't the couch. I need to be sitting
For people who can't see us. Obviously, you'll hear dogs and cars
We are actually sitting in aaron's backyard and just going through his album state i'm in and so we've talked about the parties over
So we're going to go ahead and play that song off. Aaron lewis's new album state i'm in and this is big machine radio