I've never been confidentNever wanted to take my shirt off in front of girlsAnd it's probablySomething that I have learnedNeed to come to terms and be honest withBut I'm too scared of what people might sayI'm afraidOf everyone judging meOnce they observe what I preserveAnd stop loving meCause that * hurtsI did it first and it's cutting meDeeper than a knife ever cutI'm no goodGive me strengthI've cried so many timesHearing the quiet in my headI hate myself but I do it in privateI'm so scaredI just can't have youWinning, winningMeCause what if you see meThe way that I see meI think I owe an apologyTo the kid I was when I was youngCause I promised himThat I'd figure all this outBy the time that he got in hereBut that was a lieAnd I am still ashamedCause I'm to blameOhOhSo all that I'm fightingIs fought by a person I can't seeAnd lately I'm hidingAll cause of meGive me strengthI've cried so many timesHearing the quiet in my headI hate myself but I do it in privateI'm so scaredI just can't have youWinning, winning meI hate myself but I do it in privateCause what if you see meThe way that I see meLost my headI'm not too proud of the way that I'm hidingEyes are wetBeen months since I caught myself smilingAnd I'm so scaredI just can't have youWinning, winning meCause what if you see meThe way that I see meGive me strengthI've cried so many timesHearing the quiet in my headI hate myself but I do it in privateI'm so scaredI just can't have youWinning, winning meCause what if you see meThe way that I see me