I've never been confident
Never wanted to take my shirt off in front of girls
And it's probably
Something that I have learned
Need to come to terms and be honest with
But I'm too scared of what people might say
I'm afraid
Of everyone judging me
Once they observe what I preserve
And stop loving me
Cause that * hurts
I did it first and it's cutting me
Deeper than a knife ever cut
I'm no good
Give me strength
I've cried so many times
Hearing the quiet in my head
I hate myself but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you
Winning, winning
Me

Cause what if you see me
The way that I see me
I think I owe an apology
To the kid I was when I was young
Cause I promised him
That I'd figure all this out
By the time that he got in here
But that was a lie
And I am still ashamed
Cause I'm to blame
Oh
Oh
So all that I'm fighting
Is fought by a person I can't see
And lately I'm hiding
All cause of me
Give me strength
I've cried so many times
Hearing the quiet in my head
I hate myself but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you
Winning, winning me
I hate myself but I do it in private
Cause what if you see me
The way that I see me
Lost my head
I'm not too proud of the way that I'm hiding
Eyes are wet
Been months since I caught myself smiling
And I'm so scared
I just can't have you
Winning, winning me
Cause what if you see me
The way that I see me
Give me strength
I've cried so many times
Hearing the quiet in my head
I hate myself but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you
Winning, winning me
Cause what if you see me
The way that I see me