I've never been confidentNever wanted to take my shirt off in front of girlsAnd it's probablySomething that I have learnedNeed to come to terms and be honest withBut I'm too scared of what people might sayI'm afraidOf everyone judging meOnce they observe what I preserveAnd stop loving meCause that just hurtsI did it first and it's cutting meDeeper than a knife ever cutI'm no goodGive me strengthI've cried so many timesHearing the quiet in my headI hate myself but I do it in privateI'm so scaredI just can't have you anywhereIn my lifeCause what if you see meThe way that I see meI think I want an apologyTo the kid I was when I was youngCause I promised himThat I'd figure all this outBy the time that he got in hereBut that was a lieAnd I am still ashamedCause I'm to blameOohI'm still ashamedOohSo all that I'm fightingIs fought by a person I can't seeOohAnd lately I'm hidingAll cause of meGive me strengthI've cried so many timesHearing the quiet in my headI hate myself but I do it in privateI'm so scaredI just can't have you anywhere near meOohCause what if you see meIf you see me the way that I see me, lost my headI'm not too proud of the way that I'm hiding, eyes are wetBut months since I caught myself smiling, I'm so scaredI just can't have you anywhere near meCause what if you see me the way that I see me?Give me strengthI've cried too many times here in the quiet in my bedI hate myself but I do it in private, I'm so scaredI just can't have you anywhere near meCause what if you see me the way that I see me?