I wrote this letter to remind myself the reasons I'm alive I got a reason number five With my pen, I wrote on and I tried To find words that I spelled all the time I caught myself and realized there were good things just ahead of me But right now it gets hard to believe But I know that I'm safe when I believe Now you can't speak to me And I can't receive The words I know you need You think I'm sad when you're free I know it's broken but a little part of me thinks that I'm glad I can go through things that make me sad It's the only time off that I've had And you know that it's hard to deny The reason that I hide at number one Know the feeling when I'm being loved I like the feeling of becoming numb But you might prefer because you can't Speak to me And I can't receive The words I know you need You think I'm sad when you're free I know it's broken but a little part of me thinks that I'm glad I can go through things that make me sad It's the only time off that I've had And you know that it's hard to deny The reason that I hide at number one Know the feeling when I'm being loved I like the feeling of becoming numb But you might prefer because you can't Reason that I hide at number one Know the feeling when I'm being loved Thanks for watching!