Red cup in my hand
Leaning against the wall
Music low and warm
Fairy lights up in the hall
Everyone's talking Laughter filling the room
But my eyes keep drifting To you across the globe
You're on the couch
Head thrown back in a ladder
Some new guy beside you Leaning in like he's stabbed
The smile hits the same
Bright as it ever was
But it's not for me anymore And that's just because
Watching you laugh with him Like it's easy news
While I pretend I'm fine Sipping this flat warm brew
Not any jokes I don't hear A voice in the grin
Acting like seeing you happy Doesn't tear me apart
Within the beat Keeps chilling but my chest feels tight
You're glowing in his light tonight And
I'm just a shadow in the corner out of
sight Pretending I don't care but I care all night
He says something quiet You touch his arm and smile
That little gesture I know
Haven't seen in a while
We catch eyes for a second Across the crowded space
You give me a soft nod Polite and out of place
I raise my cup like cheers Turn back to the wall
Talk to a friend about nothing Nothing at all
But every burst of your laughter Cuts through the track
Like a vinyl skip That keeps pulling me back
Watching you laugh with him Like it's easy news
While I pretend I'm fine Sipping this flat warm brew
Not any jokes I don't hear A voice in the grin
Acting like seeing you happy Doesn't tear me apart
Within the beat Keeps chilling but my chest feels tight
You're glowing in his light tonight And I'm
just a shadow in the corner out of sight
Pretending I don't care but I care all night
I could walk over,
say hi Play it cool like before
But I know how it ends Small talk,
then nothing more
So I stay in my lane Let the lo-fi play slow
Watch you be happy And practice letting go
Watching you laugh with him And it's almost okay
Almost believe I'm here
When you look my way
I leave before the slope's on Slip out quiet and slow
Before the mass slips And everybody knows
The beat winds down Lights *** to gold
You're still laughing And I'm still cold
Pretending I don't care
as I close the door
Pretending I don't care
but I do