I am holding my breath, awaiting my death, and it feels so close to me I am full of regret, and over my head, and I've got no remedy I don't wanna cry when I'm thinking too much, but I don't know a life where it isn't too much And not enough I'm in the water, far from the surface, fighting is useless How can I do this? It's getting harder Finding a purpose, inviting the voices, I'm my own poison Lost, away from it all, who's there to call when I'm my own enemy? I don't wanna cry when I'm thinking too much, but I don't know a life where it isn't too much But still never enough I'm in the water, far from the surface, fighting is useless How can I do this? It's getting harder Finding a purpose, inviting the voices, I'm my own poison I'm in the water, holding my own hand, but I know it's pointless I'm my own poison