I'm not really the type to say what's on my mindMy friends gotta entice me with the right things to findOr pause me at nightSometimes I try to frighten myself when I tell themThat I'll be alrightThey all know it's a lieBut I try to hide itI know I'd be better if I justOpen upOpen upI'm really trying toOpen upOpen upIt's hard but I keep pushingIt's allOpen upOpen upOpen upI'm trying to say itOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upI'm hurtIn a truth I can't explainI hopedHe didn't mean itMaybe I'm wrongI'm the one who's embarrassedI'm asking for forgivenessFor trustingThey all say it's a lieIt was never my faultIt's hard but I keep pushing it tooOpen upOpen upOpen upI'm really trying toOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upIt's hard but I keep pushing it tooOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upKnocking on my door sayingOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upOpen upDon't goStart it back