I bought an antidote, my body left my soul I thought I overdosed, I've never come so close So I go tearing it up, and I go digging it in Without you, I'm nothing I saw a heavenly ghost, I think that angel would know Now I'm scared, to go downstairs Well now I'm tripping it out, oh now I'm falling apart Well I peeled off, my skin, my skin Where my sins, seek win It's the end, it's the end At least I saw one boy kill her Money don't buy one kill her At least I saw one boy kill her At least I saw one boy kill her So around we go, said she never been high before Baby now you know, yeah I lived like I died before Can't see the sunrise no more So around we go, bad dreams where my eyes won't close I don't know if I can get back home If I lose it just don't let me know If I lose it just don't let me go I bought an antidote My body left my soul I thought I overdosed I've never come so close I just wanna feel numb Life is a mission like a pill run Whether supplying or demand Thanks for giving like a pilgrim Depression in my adolescence My teacher said I'm mad aggressive My pastor told me count my blessings While he was counting granny pockets She hid the bigger bills from my uncle by the wall socket False profits, bottom line it's all profit When the pain is internal baby you can't stop it Get high to suppress it It's easier to hide than address it Push I could love a bunch of things People telling me I'm trying to life change I've been up for days I've been anxious I would save it but I'm just changing I bought an antidote My body left my soul I thought I overdosed I've never come so close I just wanna feel numb