I'm sensitive, I feel everything, I feel everybody One man, standing on two words, heal everybody Transformation, then reciprocation Karma must return, heal myself Secrets that I hide, buried in these words Death threats, ego must die But I let it purge, pacify, broken pieces of me It was all a blur, mother cried, put they hands on her It was family ties, I heard it all, I should've grabbed a gun But I was only five, I still feel it, weighing on my heart My first tough decision, in the shadows, clinging to my soul That's my only credit, where's my faith? Told you I was Christian, but just not today I transformed, praying to the trees, God is taking shape My mother's mother, followed me for years, in her afterlife Staring at me, on back of some buses, I wake up at night Loved her dearly, traded in my tears, for a Range Rover Transformation, you ain't felt grief, till you felt it sober Oh, I wish I was somebody, anybody but myself Oh, I wish I was somebody, anybody but myself I remember, looking in the mirror, knowing I was gifted Only child, me for seven years, everything for Christmas Family ties, they accused my cousin, did he touch you, Kendrick? Never lied, but no one believed me, when I said he didn't Frozen moments, still holding on it, hard to trust myself I started rhyming, coping mechanisms, to lift up myself Talked to my lawyer, told me not to be, so hard on myself He has an aura, I hope to achieve, if I find some help Congratulations, made it to be famous, still I feel uneasy Water watching, live my life in nature, only thing relieves me Spirit God, whisper in my ear, tell me that she sees me Did he touch you? I said no again, still they didn't believe me Mother's brother, said he got revenge, for my mother's face Black and blue, the image of my queen, that I can't erase Till this day, can't look her in the eyes, pain is taking over Blame myself, you never felt guilt, till you felt it's over I was never high, I was never drunk, never held my mind, I need control They handed me some smoke, but still I declined, I did it sober Sitting with myself, I went through all emotions, no dependence Except for one, let me bring you closer, intoxicated There's a lustful nature, that I failed to mention Insecurities, that I project, sleeping with other women Witness her, the pure soul, I know, I found her in the kitchen Asking God, where did I lose myself, and can it be forgiven? Broke me down, she looked me in my eyes, is there an addiction? I said no, but this time I lied, I knew that I can fix it Pure soul, even in her pain, know she cared for me Gave me a number, said she recommended some therapy I asked my mama, why she didn't believe me, when I told her no I never knew, she was violated, in Chicago Unsympathetic, told me that she feared, it happened to me For my protection, though it never happened, she wouldn't agree Now I'm affected, twenty years later, trauma has resurfaced Amplified, as I write this song, I shiver cause I'm nervous I was five, questioning myself, long for many years Nothing's wrong, just results of how them questions made me feel I made it home, seven years of tour, chasing manhood But Whitney's gone, by time you hear this song, she did all she could All those women, gave me superpowers, what I thought I lacked I pray our children, don't inherit me, and feelings I attract A conversation, not being addressed, in black families The devastation, haunting generations, and humanity They raped our mothers, then they raped our sisters Then they made us watch, then made us rape each other Psychotic torture, between our lives, we ain't recovered Still living as victims, in the public eyes, who pledge allegiance Every other brother, has been compromised, I know the secrets Every other rapper, sexually abused, I see em daily Burying they pain, in chains and tattoos So listen close, before you start to pass judgment On how we move, learn how we cope Whenever his uncle, had to walk him from school His anger grows, deep in misogyny This is post-traumatic, black families and a sodomy Today is still active, so I set free myself From all the guilt, that I thought I made So I set free my mother, all the hurt, that she titled shame So I set free my cousin, chaotic, for my mother's pain I hope Hakeem makes you proud, cause you ain't dying vain So I set free the power of Whitney, may she heal us all So I set free our children, make her calmer, keep them with God So I set free the hearts filled with hatred, keep our bodies sacred As I set free all your abusers, this is transformation Oh I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Oh I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself You did it I'm proud of you You broke a generational curse Say thank you dad Thank you daddy Thank you mommy Thank you brother Mr. Monroe Before I go and fast asleep Love me for me I bare my soul and now we're free