Painted a picture, I wanted to make sure that Everything's perfect, the trouble is worth it, I I almost believed it, I blinded myself with lies And now it's so obvious you never wanted us And all this time I have tried To make sure you're doing fine So why'd you make me feel like I was a monster You made me believe that I didn't want you But I never tried to shut you down, no, didn't I Tell you that I did, I did it all for you Still made me feel like I was a monster I was a monster Years down the line, everything will be fine, I know Maybe you'll laugh and pretend nothing happened, oh But I'd lie if I said I don't think about you all the time But steady and slowly, a little less lonely now And all this time I have tried To make sure you're doing fine So why'd you make me feel like I was a monster You made me believe that I didn't want you But I never tried to shut you down, no, didn't I Tell you that I did, I did it all for you Still made me feel like I was a monster I was a monster I was a monster I was a monster Why'd you make me feel like I was a monster You made me believe that I didn't want you But I never tried to shut you down, no, didn't I Tell you that I did, I did it all for you Still made me feel like I was a monster I was a monster