I've been drinking all my momma's whiskey, I've been staying up alone at night I've been thinking bout mistakes I'm paying for, for which I still don't know the price I've been acting like my dirty laundry isn't dirty if I fold it right I just don't know tonight, yeah I've been feeling like the Knicks now Had to sacrifice last year to try and land a pick now, random sidebar I'm still pissed Netflix dropped the get down And when I get down, ain't no way *** that's every day Even on the bestest of days, cups in the air till the rest can relate, yeah I've been finding grooves in the madness, yeah I've been lil bruised with the sadness, yeah I've been drinking booze to ***tract ***, yeah I've been becoming the cliche, don't want them to wait Till the end of the game to check on me, I ain't an instant replay homie, I be way lonely Be on my phone where they be way phony, I made an album I think it's amazing I'm scared you won't like it though, what you know bout that Like when you write your truth can't say it was typo, yo I mix my gangster with delicate, I've been afraid of the evidence I'm in my jaded ***-element, soul is on fire, just hope that my hope doesn't vacate the premises Fame be the flakiest sedative, and I'm most afraid of irrelevance Now, I've been treating women like my heart is trumping, like all my feelings is Mexicans It ain't that I'm afraid to let them in, I'm just an emotional veteran Emotion just ain't worth the stress in it, and all of these pressures been festering Little bit of strength and a little bit of paint, what I work with, no, that's all I need Little bit of faith and a hint of some restraint, wish I had more round, that's not what I see They give me applause and a bunch of oohs and ahhs at the bars, but homie, that's not all I be 2020, they gon' get to know me, me Sun is coming, shining above us, and it's a good day Dear Jehovah, tell me what love is, wish you could tell me something *** it, lose your friends, lose your soul to trends Losing love to make the ends, to get the means To make the ends, to look behind, but play pretend And wish that you could play again, but different now The climate feel like winter now, this *** ain't real It's all just smoke and mirrors, wow Sinning, alcoholic, yeah, I've been it Lying, cheating, yeah, I did it Wear that shoe, cause I fit it, yeah Are you living what you rap bout? Or are you living in a sad house? Or do you really get enough rest? Like, *** it, I'm about to cash out Rooftop in my hometown with a sweet chick, it's my soul food Got a new face and a new way, but she only ***ing with the old you So I been moving in and out the city Time to time, you gotta cut the lights Told my shorty I been hella busy Mama told me don't believe the hype I been somewhere holding down the parts Living free and taking no advice Take the tiny walker over ice Devil always putting up a fight I been drinking, I been drinking Yeah I been drinking all my mama's whiskey I been staying up alone tonight I been thinking bout mistakes and paying for it For which I still don't know the price I been acting like my dirty laundry Isn't dirty if I fold it right I just don't know the nature I been drinking all my mama's whiskey I been staying up alone tonight I been thinking bout mistakes and paying for it For which I still don't know the price I been acting like my dirty laundry Isn't dirty if I fold it right I just don't know the nature