In my pornography I had built by brain swapping, I had gotten my hands on some bondage and discipline pornography with children in my home.
Some of the reading that I had done and the pictures that I had seen showed total submission, forcing the children to get out of the home.
And I had eventually started using some of this bondage and discipline to define myself.
And as it escalated to the point where I was putting on the largest black rag under his head and taping it around his neck with black note pair, black electrical tape and raping and molesting him at that point.
To the point that he would turn blue, pass out.
At that point I would rip the bag open.
I would rip the bag off his head, not for fear of hurting him, but because of the excitement.
I was extremely aroused by inflicting pain.
And when I seen him pass out and change colors, that was very arousing and heightened for me.
And I would rip the bag off his head and then I would jump up on his chest and I would masturbate in his face.
And make himself confused.
As he started to come back awake.
While he was coughing and choking, I would rape him in the mouth.