I wish I was a me sometimes, wish I had a better attitude
When I'm hanging with my dudes, but it's hard to be free sometimes
When you got a f***ing self-esteem and there's nothing you can do
I can get a bit extreme sometimes
Please don't ask me how I'm holding up
I'ma probably lie to y'all and say that everything's good
Everything's
I think I know what I like now
Dirty sneakers riding bikes down
Fifth and Alameda with my eyes low
Barely getting sleep cause I don't know how
Every breathing fogging up my bifocals
Still trying to figure out my pronouns
Call me what you want but not tonight though
I know you think we're cool but maybe slow down
Cause I don't get it
Tats too fast, well anymore
Also not easily impressed, well anymore
Lately I've been feeling kinda stressed, a little too much
From my best friends to women and family to business
I hate speaking up cause I know no one's listening at all
And I wish I was a me sometimes
Wish I had a better attitude
When I'm hanging with my dudes, but it's hard to be free sometimes
When you got a f***ing self-esteem and there's nothing you can do
You get a bit extreme sometimes
Please don't ask me how I'm holding up
I'mma probably lie to y'all and say that everything's good
Everything's
As simple as pleasures
That consume my mind
Is now replaced with depression
I saw all the signs
And still I gave it no effort
Try speaking my mind
It's my freedom of expression
I'm trying my best
To broke my head
I'm on the right path, but bumpy roads make it endless
And when I detour, I stay alone and feel restless
I've been skipping meals, when's the last time I had breakfast?
I hate what I'm blessed with, cause I don't get attached too fast anymore
And I'm also not easily impressed anymore
Lately I've been feeling kinda stressed, a little too much
From my best friends to women and family to business
I hate speaking up cause I know no one's listening at all
Man, I wish I wasn't me sometimes
Wish I had a better attitude when I'm hanging with my dudes
But it's hard to be free sometimes
When you gotta pick up self-esteem and there's nothing you can do
I can get a bit extreme sometimes
Please don't ask me I'm holding up, I'm a liar to myself
I say that everything's cool
I'm on the right path, but bumpy roads make it endless

I hate what I'm blessed with, cause I don't get attached too fast

Man, I wish I wasn't me sometimes
Wish I had a better attitude when I'm hanging with my dudes
But it's hard to be free sometimes
When you gotta pick up self-esteem and there's nothing you can do
I can get a bit extreme sometimes
Please don't ask me I'm holding up, I'm a liar to myself
I say that everything's cool
I'm on the right path, cause I know no one's listening at all
I say that everything's cool
Wish I'm only alright when I'm tryin' to Stay
Wish that everything's cool
Wish I'm just the only one left
Wish I'm the only one now
Wish that there's nothing we can do
Don't get me wrong It all comes down to God
He's like just let me know
A little closer

Take it all, don't let this get me down
Take it all, don't let this get me down
Yeah he's like just let me know
© transcript Emily Beynon