I wish I was a me sometimes, wish I had a better attitudeWhen I'm hanging with my dudes, but it's hard to be free sometimesWhen you got a f***ing self-esteem and there's nothing you can doI can get a bit extreme sometimesPlease don't ask me how I'm holding upI'ma probably lie to y'all and say that everything's goodEverything'sI think I know what I like nowDirty sneakers riding bikes downFifth and Alameda with my eyes lowBarely getting sleep cause I don't know howEvery breathing fogging up my bifocalsStill trying to figure out my pronounsCall me what you want but not tonight thoughI know you think we're cool but maybe slow downCause I don't get itTats too fast, well anymoreAlso not easily impressed, well anymoreLately I've been feeling kinda stressed, a little too muchFrom my best friends to women and family to businessI hate speaking up cause I know no one's listening at allAnd I wish I was a me sometimesWish I had a better attitudeWhen I'm hanging with my dudes, but it's hard to be free sometimesWhen you got a f***ing self-esteem and there's nothing you can doYou get a bit extreme sometimesPlease don't ask me how I'm holding upI'mma probably lie to y'all and say that everything's goodEverything'sAs simple as pleasuresThat consume my mindIs now replaced with depressionI saw all the signsAnd still I gave it no effortTry speaking my mindIt's my freedom of expressionI'm trying my bestTo broke my headI'm on the right path, but bumpy roads make it endlessAnd when I detour, I stay alone and feel restlessI've been skipping meals, when's the last time I had breakfast?I hate what I'm blessed with, cause I don't get attached too fast anymoreAnd I'm also not easily impressed anymoreLately I've been feeling kinda stressed, a little too muchFrom my best friends to women and family to businessI hate speaking up cause I know no one's listening at allMan, I wish I wasn't me sometimesWish I had a better attitude when I'm hanging with my dudesBut it's hard to be free sometimesWhen you gotta pick up self-esteem and there's nothing you can doI can get a bit extreme sometimesPlease don't ask me I'm holding up, I'm a liar to myselfI say that everything's coolI'm on the right path, but bumpy roads make it endlessI hate what I'm blessed with, cause I don't get attached too fastMan, I wish I wasn't me sometimesWish I had a better attitude when I'm hanging with my dudesBut it's hard to be free sometimesWhen you gotta pick up self-esteem and there's nothing you can doI can get a bit extreme sometimesPlease don't ask me I'm holding up, I'm a liar to myselfI say that everything's coolI'm on the right path, cause I know no one's listening at allI say that everything's coolWish I'm only alright when I'm tryin' to StayWish that everything's coolWish I'm just the only one leftWish I'm the only one nowWish that there's nothing we can doDon't get me wrong It all comes down to GodHe's like just let me knowA little closerTake it all, don't let this get me downTake it all, don't let this get me downYeah he's like just let me know© transcript Emily Beynon