One bad night, there was a light up in the sky
Okay, okay, okay
And Monday night, never seemed so far away
Okay, okay, okay
Lost my life on the farthest side
Okay, okay, okay
My father's eyes, they ran like the rain
Okay, okay, okay
And mama was never too scared to fly, so she took the train
Okay, okay, okay
Holding on to life with everything I possibly could give
The thought crossed my mind, over space and time
This is what it is
Thinking I'd die for nothing, thinking I'd die for nothing
Makes me wanna live, makes me wanna live
Knowing I'd die for something, knowing I'd die for something
Makes me wanna live, makes me wanna live
And baby, it's now or never, I'm holding this pace forever
That's how I wanna live, that's how I wanna live
And ever since then, I don't do what I got
And let go of what I'm not today
And ever since then, I've been working on a plot
To manifest my fears away
I'm coming back to life
For good, for good, for good
For good, for good, for good
For good, for good
Memorial Day weekend
My father sleeping, my girl creeping
Our brothers at a party, mama on the Amtrak
Doctor came in so late to get his hands back
And he stands there, and he stares at
You saw the look on his face, what you staring at
And what I'm feeling now, it feels so barren now
I feel like nothing ever mattered, never cared or how
I felt forsaken, God, must be mistaken, God
I feel like hating, God, you put me under Satan
I'm 28, I'm about to leave
I'm so cold, I'm about to freeze
Lord, please, break out the sorcery
No war was me, no war, no war was me
Was this part of your plan, was it supposed to be?
Weren't you my safety net, weren't you supposed to be?
Yep, most of love and swords power next to me
All these hours left to be, but these thoughts devour me
Of my family on their knees, and these flowers shower me
No horse power left in me, only coward left in me
So I cower at your feet, like you want us all to be
Lord, the darker the valley, the harder to climb
I swear to God, I'ma see the sun
I'm going back to life
Fall, fall, fall, fall by me
Fall, fall, fall, fall by me