In the worst way, I don't know what to say to you This is the first time I feel the distance It's your birthday and all I really want to do Is feel okay not knowing your business Is feel okay just feeling the silence Not obsessing over the timing Knowing that things blow with the right wind Getting used to space when the night ends But it all makes me wish that you were still here I'm holding your seat cause maybe you'll be right back I don't know if I'm awake but baby I think I'm waking Taking the weight off the waiting Taking a break without breaking From the first day I must've known it When I called back home and they said You sound like someone new Now I can't relax, ain't got no way of slowing And it looks like death and I don't think I am over you It's all in the way I'm talking to the people that we both know When they ask what you're up to I tense up cause you never let me know But I hold deep in the silence You are finally finding Something within that place that you could never be But it all makes me wish that you were still here I'm holding your seat cause maybe you'll be right back I don't know if I'm awake but baby I think I'm waking Taking the weight off the waiting Taking a break without breaking Thanks for watching!