When I pretend everything is what I want it to be I look exactly like what you had always wanted to see When I pretend I can forget about the criminal I am Stealing second after second just cause I know I can But I can't pretend this is the way it'll stay I'm just trying to bend the truth I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be So I'm lying my way from you No, no turning back now I wanna be pushed aside so let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather beg all alone No turning back now Anywhere on my own Cause I can't stand No, no turning back now The very worst part of y'all Is me I remember what they taught to me Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be Remember listening to all of that mess again So I pretended up a person who was fitting in And now you think this person really is me And I'm Trying to bend the truth The more I push the more I'm pulling away Cause I'm Lying my way from you No, no turning back now I wanna be pushed aside so let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather beg all alone No turning back now Anywhere on my own Cause I can't stand No, no turning back now The very worst part of y'all The very worst part of y'all Is me This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this, this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this, this isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me This isn't what I wanted to be I never thought that what I said would have you running from me Like this, yeah No turning back now I wanna be pushed aside So let me go No, no turning back now Let me take back my life I'd rather be all alone No turning back now Anywhere on my own Cause I can't stand No, no turning back now The very worst part of y'all The very worst part of y'all Is me