I was never shown how to love, so I did my best to guess Everything a man ever wants, a tiny girl in a dress A trophy for his friends And I didn't even like, so Try to learn from mistakes, I haven't made one in months But it's getting harder to take, pushin' away everyone And you decide to show up And you know I'm not mad about it Swear to God, I'm a change and I'm agnostic All this loneliness is getting so exhausting Sick to my stomach, yeah, I'm feeling kinda nauseous I can't tell if it's you I'm so lost, lost Knowing if I'm ready to trust feels goddamn hard You're picking at skin and bones I feel my lips, they're turning blue Are you great or something new? I'm so lost, lost You're actually my type, or do I just need a bite? Is it the fact that you're there, do I actually care? The potential of the latter's got me pulling my hair out I'm a skeleton of the love on my side Yeah, it was so bad, but you're nothing like that, yeah Swear to God, I'm a change but I'm agnostic All this loneliness is getting so exhausting Sick to my stomach, yeah, I'm feeling kinda nauseous I can't tell if it's you Cause I'm so lost, lost Knowing if I'm ready to trust feels goddamn hard You're picking at skin and bones I feel my lips, they're turning blue Are you great or something new? I'm so I'm so lost, lost Sometimes it gets so damn hard I will show my skin and bones I'm so scared to end up alone Choke me off a cliff Then go ahead and push me right off of it I'm so scared, I'm on a wave I'm on fire, I'm a *** liar I'm a maniac, I always laugh When I'm frustrated, I'm educated, I'm motivated I want love, it'll wash me back But I don't think I know how to actually have Something good staring back at me Swear to everyone, always *** leaves When I look you in the eyes, I only wanna deal lies You, you don't look surprised, I hate my mind Cause I'm so Lost, lost I'm so Lost, lost Lost, lost