Look, self-awareness, pride's a code and yes I like to wear it Buttoned up, don't like to let no air in With a pair of gloves that I hope doesn't perish I discover though when I get holes in them And I let joy in, I'm in higher spirits My mistakes are like a screaming parrot Just repeating lyrics, I can barely bear it When I'm lost, road is narrow I'm looking down it like a gun's barrel Aren't we all searching for the serum That could help us breathe and leave our state of peril? All of us have made defensive scarecrows That we scatter around our fields and treat like heroes When they scare away the things that we should cherish Cause we're too embarrassed to admit the fear is that we're lost Yeah, but what does it matter? I get too combative, inside of me's a personal canvas The pain can be flat, I get messy when I start to get rattled The heart of it's savage and quiet when I lurk in the shadows But something don't matter, but I don't wanna be overdramatic But look at the data, it's obvious that humans are fragile We tend to get mad at the ones that call us out but the fact is We need someone that'll be honest when we fly off that handle I admit I throw a fit when I begin to unravel Keep my wits, been off the grid but now I'm back in the saddle My intent is not to rant, I like to own what I value I can take you on the fence or maybe pick up the paddle I like to roll against the current, that's the way that I travel Opposite of what the grain is, got the brain of a rebel Take initiative, I'm diligent on every level I never can settle, I like to keep my foot on the pedal I love to pack arenas and all But what I really wanna do is learn to handle my thoughts And put the reins on them, show them I'm the one that's the boss And pull them back when they get out of hand I'm breaking their jaws, I'm taking their flaws They told me I could never evolve, then pull a Bane on them Ask them, oh you think you're in charge? You oughta know better, ain't no way around it I'm flawed, the traits that I want They say I can't afford what it costs, but I Manifested this Failing's how you grow and learn your lessons, kids Take the worst and try to make the best of it Cause when you fail, just know that it's a test and if You can learn to pick yourself back up again And train your brain to not be such a pessimist It's okay to make mistakes, just don't forget that there's a high point But I skip the exit when I'm lost Yeah, when I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm lost Lost Wow, these burdens are heavy And I'm hoping it don't bury me I used to be joyful and skip so merrily But now I'm too cautious and tiptoe carefully My mind left, and it's nowhere to be found Am I a big ol' parody? Cause it's no fair to me And now I'm at the point where I'm spending A grand a week on hypnotherapy Look, I'm tryna wash away my sins I got a group of loved ones that ain't my friends And if I ever take a nail, then they might grin And they all wanna see me stay in the cage I'm in So when it come to anybody, there's no trust for no one Man, so what, my whole plan's to go nuts My shoulders ready for most rugs I'm gon' judge anybody tryna enter my circle with no love My sanity's gone, I'd rather be torn From this planet they planted me on Yes, that's a reward I'm actually bored with having this sore heart It's torn apart from a family that I don't have anymore Man, hold up I was living so oblivious With millions, it really was A pity, huh? It's kinda funny what a penny does Mixed in with a mini-buzz I feel stuck Life caught me by the neck with a blade against it Cause I was running late for the train and missed it The only thing I feel is pain and vengeance So I'ma act out like a raging misfit And every verse I lay gon' stay sadistic You wanna hate me? Good, great, terrific You'll never see the day when my anger's dismissed You better go and change your wish list Yeah, manifested this Do not treat me like some adolescent kid I am praying to the Lord with the book of James Hoping he go where my testament This dark cloud, that's my residence Demons knocking, I don't have to let them in I done made mistakes, day to day You probably can't relate, I just ain't the same When I'm lost Yeah When I'm lost When I'm When I'm lost When I'm lost When I'm Lost