I'm full of love but I'm full of rage I'm full of rage but I'm full of life
I'm full of love but I'm full of pain I'm full of pain but I'm full of light
I sit and wonder what it's gonna take
What's it gonna take for me to be alright?
What's it gonna take for me to be the type of person that my people can believe in?
Cause my demons seem to be beating me in the fire
And see I can't keep up
I'm trying to find the energy but can't be *
On the path of destruction
You'll see the library rocked if you ever wanna charge me up
But I hate that about me
And I hate that I'm like that
Yeah I hate that I'm like that
I hate that I might snap
And I hate where my life's at when I deviate from the right track
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright
I'm full of dirt but I'm full of faith
I'm full of faith but I'm full of hurt
I'm full of hurt so I'm full of hate
And I hate to admit it but I'm full of worse
See I never ask for permission
I'm the type to always ask for forgiveness
And see I'm trying to remember that what other people think of me is none of my business
But still I let it seep in my psyche
And still I go weak with anxiety
Feeling like a freak trying to sleep with a nightly
I might be a beast on the mic in your eyes
But in mine I don't see it
I'm either different or one of a kind or just weird
I've got a lot of courage and I've got a lot of fears
I've sunk a lot of friendships that I commandeered
Cause I had to
Went from a graph crew to a rap crew
But they're not forgotten years and they're years that I value
But you can't escape fate when it grabs you or has you
And I'm just in amazement that I've been able to be patient
All of the days spent looking for the maze end
See I'm doubtful but never complacent
Kill that doubt, leave it dead in the basement
It's still so loud that the sound is flagrant
Down for the count, I'm not proud to say this
But * I'm afraid that I'll never amount to what my mum said
When she said I'm bound to be famous
So if it isn't expectations
Then it's death threats in the text left waiting
If it says red then I'm forced to face them
Then I see red when I talk to Satan
Lately I've been scared of a confrontation
I've been too anxious for conversation
So I stay home and I don't know what to do

Feeling like I'm on probation
Feeling like I don't belong with the congregation
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright
I'm full of grit but I'm full of joy
I'm only full of joy when I'm full of piss
I'm full of bliss and I'm full of hope
Yeah I say I'm full of hope, really I'm just full of *
Self-loathing you couldn't miss
As I sit and reminisce
On the good looking chicks that I could've kissed
If I wasn't scared of rejection
Like I was destined to see the bullet hit
Why am I so scared to be judged
Misunderstood and compared to the mud
Hyper aware in a life of despair
Prepared for the worst, I'm too rare to be loved I swear
You couldn't fit in my night cares
And I wish I didn't but I care
That my mind isn't anything like theirs
I guess this is life and I never defy fear
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright
Losing grip I'm falling
Losing grip I'm failing
But I know I'll be alright