I
found the page you dogged last July
That little red circle like a bullseye on my heart
You laughed and said only if you're feeling reckless
I swore I'd make you Christmas breathless So I hunted it down,
paid full price,
no regret
The last one in the state,
the salesgirl won't forget how my hands shook
When I said it has to be perfect,
she didn't know perfect
Don't matter when it's worthless,
silver paper sat in bow so tight
Tied it like I could still tie you to my life
Now I'm parked under diamond mall lights Perfectly wrapped,
no where to go tonight Holding the one thing you wanted most In
a box that feels heavier than a ghost Tears hitting the ribbon,
turn it red to rust Every bow I tie comes undone
like us I bought you the dream you drew in it But
dreams don't have addresses when love starts to sink
I walk past the fountain where you threw in a dime Wish for forever,
got three months time The Santa in the center still rings
the same bell Sounds like a hobby when it all went to hell
Kids are screaming,
moms are rushing,
life moves on I'm fossilized in December,
holding what you wanted all along
Right here in the front seat,
dash lights glowing red Perfectly wrapped,
and you're gone instead Try to outrun the truth
in every store aisle But the truth caught me here,
mile after mile Tears on the paper smudging to my
love From the fool who still isn't good enough I bought
the one thing that would've made you cry Happy,
now it's just making me cry I keep
thinking maybe I'll leave it on your porch
Ring the bell and run like some coward
torch But you changed the locks,
changed your name in my phone
Changed the channel on every future we know So
it sits on the passenger seat like a hostage
A ransom I can't pay to get the pass to stop this doom
Malls closing down,
they're killing all the lights Perfectly wrapped,
dying with me tonight
I'll carry it home,
set it under my tree One lonely present,
no one loping but me
Maybe next year I'll burn it,
maybe I'll let it stay Proof I still love you in the most broken way
I gave you the gift,
you circled in red Now it's the only heartbeat I got left
Engine won't start,
maybe I won't let it Some sentences we just don't finish
Snow on the windshield, blur in the view
Perfectly wrapped,
perfectly,
perfectly
Without you Without you