Last January you were curled on my chest
Saying I just got out of something,
I'm not there yet
I nodded,
kissed your forehead,
turned the volume down
Told myself patience is a kind of love too
You needed space, I gave you continents
You needed time,
I froze my life in increments Heavy,
I'm not ready,
I swallow like medicine
Thought healing you would finally let me in I was your soft place,
your maybe later
You were already circling yes on someone else's paper
Six months,
sixteen months from I can't do this yet to a ring on your finger
Six months from I'm scared of seriousing To forever with a stranger
You weren't broken,
you were browsing I was the clearance rack you tried on for size
Now you're glowing in white and I'm still stuck on the night
You said, I'm just not ready Turns out you were
just not for me
I saw the proposal on your story at 2am Knee down,
fairy lights,
the smile I waited
You used the wind saying mouth that told me rings freak
me out Not wearing one like it was always the plan
And you used to flinch when I said one day Now you're
picking fonts for save the dates Funny how fear of
commitment only applied to the man who wouldn't leave
I was your training wheels,
you got the version that could ride
I taught you how to be loved,
then you took the lesson and changed your mind
Six months,
six short months from I'm not built for promises that I do
Six months from ghosting my future
To building his with you,
I hope the diamond feels heavy
When you remember who's heart you practiced on I
hope forever tastes different when it isn't the one
You swore you weren't ready for
I still have the screenshot,
I'm just not in that place right now
Sent exactly six months and twelve days before you said yes to him
I guess timing really is everything And I was just the wrong club
Six months was all it took To go from
never to always with somebody new
Six months of me learning to live without
you While you learned how to plan a wedding
I hope he never finds out he wasn't your first choice
Just the first one after me who asked at the right time
Congratulations, I guess you finally got ready
Sorry it took leaving me to figure out how