I wish the people would lie and say that they love me
Would look me in my pretty face and tell me I love they true intentions
I never really was to drown it out tight
But I must admit that I got a problem, probably need an intervention
I'm looking in the mirror and recognize the parts of my dad I don't like
And that's the truth that I don't wanna live in
I called my mom last night and told her I've been struggling
When it comes to figuring out this thing we call living
And do I really want it? I feel myself falling apart, I feel myself flooding
Think I'm afraid to talk to God cause I don't feel nothing
I don't want him to think I'm taking all of this for granted
Well *, maybe I am
Ask me how I feel, I'ma say I'm jaded
Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded
It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone
I'm afraid of God and my heart wants to go
Yeah, ask me how I feel, I'ma say I'm jaded
Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded
It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone
I'm afraid of God and my heart wants to go
Conversations with myself, I'm trying to find all these statements
Tell me what's the point in this if I'm not seeing the reason
I've been made to feel like I don't give enough
When in the end it's my heartbeat and I put my trust in so many
That only end up leaving while the ones that truly love me
End up paying for their sins
I've been lying to myself, I know this ain't the way to live
I've been lying to myself, I know this ain't the way to live
And I've been reflecting, all what I see in my reflection
I'll tell it all right now, I'll give you every confession so you can
Ask me how I feel, I'ma say I'm jaded
Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded
It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone
I'm afraid of God and my heart wants to go
Yeah, ask me how I feel, I'ma say I'm jaded
Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded
It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone
I'm afraid of God and my heart wants to go
Yeah, ask me how I feel, I know this ain't the way to live