It's my birthday, but I don't feel happyForgot what the word means, you know what it's likeNo end to the night when I won't let the light inFeels like I'm driving drunk most of the timeI stare at the walls till they cave inAnd never call anyone backCause I know that I'm not worth savingAnd who wants to talk about thatIt's my birthdayBut I don't feel happySo I'll drink to my heartacheI know it's the worst wayTo leave it behindIf I'm being honestIt's not what I wantedFeels like it's all too muchMost of the timeI stare at the walls till they cave inAnd never call anyone backCause I know that I'm not worth savingAnd who wants to talk about that?I'm always afraid when there's no one aroundBut I can't see my friendsCause I'm bringing them downNow I'm closing the doorAnd I'm waitingI'll shut them all outSo they don't ask me why I'm not better by nowIt's my birthdayAnd I'm hoping the window breaksTo steal my reflectionTo show me outsideSometimes I wonderIf I'd ever love herFeels like she's all I've gotMost of the timeFunny how all that I wantIs to leave her behind