It's my birthday, but I don't feel happy
Forgot what the word means, you know what it's like
No end to the night when I won't let the light in
Feels like I'm driving drunk most of the time
I stare at the walls till they cave in
And never call anyone back
Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that
It's my birthday
But I don't feel happy



So I'll drink to my heartache
I know it's the worst way
To leave it behind
If I'm being honest
It's not what I wanted
Feels like it's all too much
Most of the time
I stare at the walls till they cave in
And never call anyone back
Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that?
I'm always afraid when there's no one around
But I can't see my friends
Cause I'm bringing them down
Now I'm closing the door
And I'm waiting
I'll shut them all out
So they don't ask me why I'm not better by now
It's my birthday
And I'm hoping the window breaks
To steal my reflection
To show me outside
Sometimes I wonder
If I'd ever love her
Feels like she's all I've got
Most of the time
Funny how all that I want
Is to leave her behind