I don't know what I was thinking, leaving my child behind Now I suffer the curse and now I am blind With all this anger, guilt and sadness pulling to haunt me forever I can't wait for the cliff at the end of the river Is this revenge I'm seeking, or seeking someone to avenge me? Stuck in my own paradox, I wanna set myself free Maybe I should chase and find a bond and try to stop it It won't be long before I'll become a puppet It's been so long, this is the last time I've seen my son Lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter Since you've been gone, I've been singing this stupid song So I could ponder, this heavenly only wonder I wish I lived in the present, with the gift of my past mistakes But the future keeps luring in like a pack of snakes Your sweet little eyes, your little smile is all I remember Those fuzzy memories mess with my temper Justification is killing me, but killing isn't justified What happened to my son? I'm terrified It stingers in my mind and the song keeps on getting bigger I'm sorry my sweet baby, I wish I'd been there It's been so long, this is the last time I've seen my son Lost to this monster, to the man behind the slaughter Since you've been gone, I've been singing this stupid song So I could ponder, this heavenly only wonder Thanks for watching!