I'm sorry.
I didn't know loving you would break me.
Swallowed my pride,
said I'm fine through the pain.
I kept giving pieces of myself until nothing remained.
I'm sorry for my weakness,
for loving you so deep.
For choosing
your happiness while I couldn't sleep.
I lost myself trying to hold us together,
blaming my heart for what it did.
I'm sorry for my weakness,
for believing in what never lived.
I begged in silence, never out loud,
afraid of pushing you away.
I carried the weight of all your storms while mine went unclaimed.
You walked away without looking back,
like I was easy to forget.
And I stood there apologizing for love you never met.
If strength means letting go,
why does it feel like defeat?
I tried to be
everything for you and lost the best of me.
I'm sorry for my weakness,
for staying way too long.
For turning red flags into hope,
for pretending I was strong.
I'll learn to forgive myself someday,
learn I deserve more than this.
But tonight I'm whispering the truth.
I'm sorry for my weakness.
Sorry for my weakness.
Maybe love wasn't the mistake.
Maybe I just loved the wrong way.
Still I owe myself an apology.