I know that pain can take me places that love has never been I know the company I keep is just a reflection of me I know instead of getting wasted I should be getting clean cuz when I try to drown my sorrows the fuckers learn to breathe underwater second-daughter syndrome is a real thing and I am permanently paralyzed by everything I think I think I think myself to death I'd like to rewire my head I'd like to be more like my sister because she can make her bed somebody please stop the world I think I would like to light it's not for me I can't believe I've paid two decades for this right still I do not believe that God exists and I've become a narcissist I had a revelation but I don't know what it is Oh Oh nothing makes me quite as happy as the pursuit of perfection and the quizzes on the internet all say you have depression and I plan for self-improvement but I never really change so I stopped living for the weekend because every day is the same it's all the same it's all the same you